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Sunday, 08 November 2009

Level up: Choose a new feat

Stefan_age = Stefan_age + 1;

Steak = true;
Cake = true;

Thursday, 05 November 2009

Me, I don't worry about, and I hope you don't either.

There seems to be some difficulty in getting people to assume that I'm pretty well okay, and am really not worried about most that comes my way, or otherwise aimed in my general direction.

I seem to have to spend extra time to relay:
I generally don't mention anything in terms of how it effects me. I mention it because of what it means to the subject in question, and/or how it may shape things to come.

eg: "That was insulting, really insulting, so of course it was annoying, but in the end immaterial. But for them to do/say that, what does relay about their way of thinking/state/other attribute?"

I'm confident about myself, and/or being, because of the sum of my actions, what can be shown, not just said.

For somebody to say they're confident, or decent, while choosing to continue to perform actions that show a lack of confidence, or actions that they themselves in any other time would consider indecent... What does it mean?

Well, regardless of who they want to be seen as, or who they feel they are: if they repeatedly chose to act in a certain way, regardless of time, state, feeling, or whoever else is there...
They are being a person who is choosing to act that way.

If they don't like being that way, because at that point it's not just an "image":
Then they have to stop living to do damage control, stop relaying on sympathy, or on pity for cover, and find and deal with the issues that lead to damaging actions.

Wednesday, 04 November 2009

1st Halloween at "the hoos"

There were only 6 kids that came by trick or treating, and I have a lot of treats left even after giving out handfuls.

I had a few friends over and it was a fun Halloween so at least a few more got to enjoy the mom-made Jack o' Lantern.

Leukesh the resident black cat and the tiny Jack o' Lantern

You can see the candle light better in this shot.

Monday, 02 November 2009

Come to think about it...

It's odd when you meet those that remind you of Duddy Kravitz...

Not the specifics... But general behavior and attitude trends, applied to the subject in question.

Friday, 02 October 2009

I got to see Russell Peters Live!

I’ve been finding more and more enjoyment at live shows as the years go by. It seems to add something that maybe I didn’t notice before.

Wednesday’s show had its, not really stumbles, but bits where he seems to scramble a bit for material to work with. There were a couple too many “What are you doing here?”s to members or groups in the audience.
On the whole though it was really enjoyable, and I’m glad I got to go.

The mixing done by the DJ's prior to the show was... Somewhat irritating, they sampled from a lot, and sadly there were too many either noisy moments, or those with not well aligned beats.
The first comedian up was okay, he had a reasonably good set, with his own take on "aspects of the relationship", a different spin on standard fare.

Russell actually caught a guy very unsutbly recording the show in the section right infront of him... But let them stay for the show after the security guy came down the aisle, because it would've taken up even more time.

I went with friends, and only saw a few people that I recognized from school, mostly in a "I have passed by them in the hall" fashion.

But, I did clearly recognize one in the front row that Russell hassled a fair bit, pre and post the camera being put on him. Once I heard Russell being corrected after saying “Mahmud?”, whether you want to say small world, or not: I knew who it was. A letter change later and there was the name and face of who was “The Other Man” quite some time ago.
Like most other times running into them, there was only a short lived weirdness in the recognition time.
But,
There was a moment when Russell made fun by pointing out that he had to look at the girl sitting next to him, after being asked “Is that your girlfriend?” I have to admit it was made funnier as the statement “Well given him, it could be somebody else’s girlfriend” came to mind.

It’s one of those past events, even if they vastly changed the dynamics from one angle or another, or changed the path of events to come: if bad, ridiculous, needless, or related words can be associated with it... Indifference and humour seem to exchange with other feelings though more and more. It would be nice though to reach a point when the humour comes about with less of a negative edge, but in all honestly I don’t think it’s unreasonable if it doesn’t. It’s really all I know about them, it’s not good, but it doesn't even have much bearing on memories.It's just there when they are there, and it's easily overshadowed by well... Life.

At the same time, I've never been a fan of indifference to path changing events... As it can lead to continuations down very destructive paths... But that's another topic, far too deep for this hour.